stlpaul33
eyecandy's Cancer Blog
August 26, 2008
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I honestly hope each and everyone of you are Having a great day!
I on the other hand am not… If you are in good spirits please ignore this post.
The biggest thing bothering me is the lack of ability to clear my head. Things were going pretty well the past few days. I had a really productive day at work both yesterday
and today, (nothing like the cancer and insurance combination to motivate a person). I have not been sleeping well, but so is life.
Here is the crux of the problem as I see it, yesterday I called Sue who is my point of contact at Washington University, I asked about my test results. The first is the simple cell type test, the second being the results of the fine needle biopsy that was done prior to the plaque surgery. The biopsy is going to tell me within reason, If the cancer is going to spread or not. It is not 100%, but close enough for me. Now I would think if I was about to give a person a death sentence (I know that future treatments, could change this) I might return his phone call in a timely manner, even if the result was not available. Anyway its been about 34 hours since that call, I had been able to keep the test results out of my head for the last 26 days, no it is consuming me. Hey kids I’ll talk tomorrow, I thought writing this would help, but it is not.
Cheers,
EyeCandy (Paul)
Have a nice day!
08.01.08 - 
Ker-b 
Thanks for your support -
I am with you Paul. One thing that I like to vent about is how much to have to call and call and leave multiple messages to get anyone to call back. It is that last thing you want to deal with when going through cancer.
Paul, if talking would help feel free to send me a message at rigidridr@yahoo.com. I will send you a phone number and listen, whenever you need to blow off steam. An ear is the best I have to offer, second to prayers.
If not, know that you are in my prayers. I hope you get answers and with them comes hope and peace.
Mac
Hi kid,
I’m with you on this one. I want the results, good or not good news. We have a life, we don’t need to hold our breath, until they call back.
I will think good thoughts, and keep you and yours in my prayers.
Hugs Sherri
I know exactly what you mean. I always want an answer as soon as possible…good or bad. They should give you that much respect. It is the NOT KNOWING that is so hard.
My thoughts and prayers are with you each and every day.
Hugs,
Joyce
If I had a candy for every fear that has shot through me since the “you’ve got cancer” comment I would open my own retail shop. This is always the hardest part – THE WAITING, the second is the news (if it doesn’t go our way), thirdly, how the results are delivered and of course, what to do next. Yup more tests, more chemo, more unknown drugs with oh more side effects from hell. Well they weren’t kidding that Cancer has a slippery slope of emotions attached to it. Sorry Paul for agreeing with you but what the heck let’s call a spade a spade. If you’re angry we are angry so that’s that. Now that you have tried to vent to us, could you be a bit more specific? I thought you had an operation and the biopsy was done before you were operated on? Not sure how it works for your kind of cancer. In any case I hope you are having a better day today, that you hear back from the hospital and that it is all good news. You of all people, life of the party road of adventure, deserve it. Let us all know – we can handle it together. Weezie
I hear (and feel) your frustration Paul! I have been waiting for my MRI results for over 2 weeks now but my doc is “on vacation” for another 2 weeks so I must wait it out another 2 weeks (at least) Us CA survivors always have a tiny seem (well…maybe sometimes a large pit)in the back of our minds the possibility of “mets” with me to my bones or spine. What ever happened to the docs of old, ones sensitive to the needs of their patients. I am praying for a good biopsy and test result for you Paul. Lily
Well I guess we are all with you! DO you think they know the word empathy? The very least they could do is call you back. Can you call and say something like I just don’t want you to forget about me? or I called but maybe you didn’t get the message?